sepertinya aku jatuh cinta

tapi entah ke siapa
buat lelaki mana
hanya ku rasa hati ini bahagia
dan ia tak pernah berdusta

adrenalin melonjak
endorphin mengalir mendesak
lewat semua aliran darah yang ada
ku tahu ini cinta

tapi entah ke siapa
buat lelaki mana
meski kadang aku sendiri bertanya,
haruskah cinta untuk seseorang saja?

merry-go-round

Been a merry-go-round kinda life
Wish you were here
So that I can share
Everything
Uhm, well.. almost everything
It's the ol' heart of mine I can't share wholeheartedly

How can I share the part that belongs to you?

but I love you

So I had this movie "The Tourist" last weekend. Great movie with Depp and Jollie as main actor and actress. They both look fantastic and sexy and just so different from their appearance or character they've ever been in a movie before. Jollie is so charming like always. While Depp is so..uhm, unpredictable. :D

And like always I tried to catch some beautiful of kewl quotation from the movie, while enjoying the scene. And I believe I love this one by Frank (Johnny Depp): "... But I love you."

It was him saying this to Elise (Angelina Jollie) at the dock (?) of a "water-airport" in Venice. Elise was kinda tricked him, so that Frank would leave back to America and be saved. Frank, feeling confused, was saying the line while staring at Elise standing on the boat, leaving him alone on the dock.

It felt like dejavu to me. Like I said that line before, but I just couldn't remember when or where and to whom. The only thing I can recall is this poem of mine:

Cinta Mudik

Kemarin senja aku bertemu Cinta di Stasiun Kota.
Cinta mau kemana? tanyaku.
Mudik. Pulang kampung, jawabnya.
Homesick ya?
Nggak.
Ada yang kangen nih?
Nggak juga.
Saudara ada yang sakit?
Semua sehat-sehat aja.
Lalu, ada apa? Kok Cinta mau mudik? tanyaku.
Orang kota nggak butuh aku, katanya.
Ah, masa? Kata siapa?
Aku heran.
Cinta tidak.
Orang kota cari harta, bukan cinta.
Orang kota butuh tahta, tanpa cinta.
Orang kota haus merdeka, nggak pake cinta.
Kata Cinta panjang seperti keretanya yang saat itu tiba.
Cinta lalu cepat melesat ke dalam kereta, takut ketinggalan.
Dari kaca, Cinta melambai, bibirnya tersenyum sambil membentuk kata: Da-daaa..!
Aku melambai: Da-daa..
Senyum terpaksa.
Ekor kereta menghilang.
Cinta pulang.
Padahal aku baru mau bilang:
Belakangan, kepada seseorang
– aku mulai sayang.

It's like "aaarrgghh" you think you got the moment, but at the exact moment, the moment just left you there. Alone. Hmm.. O well, let's not bring the past up anymore ;-)



~used to be a queen of drama~

felt so..

it started in this mosque at itc, when i was waiting for the magrib prayer. after doing the rawatib, there i was sitting inside the mosque, doing wirid, and (unfortunately) wondering my eyes all around the room. and they like stopped and stucked at this lil thingy. this beautiful lil thingy.

there she was, this beautiful baby girl wearing a maroon jilbab, lying on the mat. besides her i could see this figure of mom, i believe. her smile was so genuine towards the baby girl. well actually EVERYONE would be smiling when looking at that beautiful baby. she was so delicate, fair, innocent - well, angel-like. her eyes were just rolling here and there, and her head would sometimes make a little movement. just a little, as if she understood that it was inside a masjid and that she was not supposed to make loud noises or moving recklessly. a baby with an attitude, really. :)

she was so beautiful that it would be difficult not to praise God for such beauty He create nor say prayer to the Creator. so after so many times saying Subhanallah, i said my lil prayer:

dear Rabb, if you let me have my own baby, please let me have one with such beauty. i want that lil creature, please if i may ask?

it was a selfish prayer, yes. what can i say, that beautiful lil angelic creature had successfully made me stunned. for the first couple of minutes, i felt so overwhelming and just contagiously keep on smiling, looking at the baby. but then, suddenly it all stopped. just stopped. for a minute i thought i had an empty air. a blank. a paused. and this feeling came outta blue,

i felt so... incomplete.